Maybe its not a smart idea to start my first blog post just as Valentine’s day ends, mostly because it’s the last thing on everyone’s minds. Especially the drunkards. Potheads. Drunk privileged blonde Starbucks girl. Anyways, I guess venting about love and all this shit should be a thing right now, right? So here it is.
See some people have plans. You know, that 1o year plan where you try to weigh out the differences between the way you handle your own insanity and the way he handles his own insanity. You know, they’ve gotta match up..apparently, to some women. (Shit, unfortunately i’m reaching the 18th mark for my years on this earth.) So some people (because feminists are also a thing in this beautiful day and age so I can’t say women) expect a fuckin’ movie out of their love lives. A lot of this gets in the way of reality. It gets in the way of “How the fuck am I going to pay for college” or “Where the fuck am I going for college” Seriously, who the most recent guy is shouldn’t factor into anyone’s decision on where to go to college. How far you’ll go will not mean how less you care about that person, man. It just means you’re trying to build yourself some character. At least, thats one of the things you get to experience going away for that milestone in your life. You, presumptuously, attempt to find yourself. Mostly, college is about finding yourself (in the cheapest, closest or farthest, way possible).
Why the hell am I talking about college.
Anyways, there’s this theory I have. Of course, it could be well executed in theory. Not in practice. As it usually goes.
It makes no sense to love just one person. I wouldn’t blame her for thinking that’s what love is because that’s what society has gown us up with our whole lives. We always thought its just boy girl but in reality it’s not necessarily a Twilight movie. This is real life. Things happen. People die, people lose their jobs, people have financial debt, all that crap. There’s no room for love. But that’s fine. You don’t have to love just one person. You can love your mother, brother, sister, cousin, aunt, uncle, grandma, grandpa, best friend, teacher, etc. (I hope you’re getting it.)
Everyone is so afraid to open up to each other and just love. And so with that, we’ve created a misconception of what love really is. Because the world wont open ip, we think that love is rare. We think that it can only be found in one special person. But thats not true, or at least, it doesn’t have to be true. All we need to do is accept. See, people think that accepting means that we approve. But you have to understand. You need to think about the fact that we all feel like we live in our own bubbles. You need to step out of that bubble. Just for a second. Step back and analyze the situation. Do your damn best to remove yourself from the equation, from the experiment. And also, if you go through life without reflecting on what you’ve experience, well, you aren’t the world, the world will experience you. It will experience how weak you are. How inexperienced and unprepared you’ve become.
How blind….I wish that I could stand in front of a crows, standing on a podium, and say these exact words. In the hopes that someone, SOMEONE, will be able to resonate with what I’m trying to say. Just so that they understand. Even in the slightest bit. I wish I could clear that blind spot in the world’s eye.
I think something we can all agree on is this:
You make the decisions…and life will do the rest for you.
It’s not necessarily completely out of our hands but we don’t have the best hold on it either.